>Calm down and handle it.
gardenGnostic: it probably sounds insane. a girl crawling through yellow rooms, desperate for any sort of contact, any anchor to reality, sniffing for traces of her ex-boyfriend's freaking orange ghostbutt, or the nostalgic phantom of her dead brother's sweat
gardenGnostic: but it was all had. or all i would let myself have
gardenGnostic: eventually it got to the point where i wouldnt even physically take care of myself anymore...
gardenGnostic: i dont know what i would have done without nannasprite hand-feeding me, frog-marching me to the shower and scrubbing me down, trimming my hair, clipping my claws, brushing my teeth for me
gardenGnostic: speaking in a human voice to me
gardenGnostic: some days i would be shut down completely. and some days i would be lucid enough to mumble a thank you to her
gardenGnostic: and maybe on a day like that id have energy to go find sniff out some obscure trace of his saliva and frolick and romp over that for a while
gardenGnostic: this probably doesnt help the whole "sounding insane" thing, but somehow these seem like...
gardenGnostic: good memories, when i retell them?
gardenGnostic: hehe. he really smelled so nice. he was good to kiss
gardenGnostic: i hope i find a guy whose smell i like that much
gardenGnostic: someday.
apotropaicAlly: you will :) <3
meumeuPOWAH69: \(`w')> < WIF MY MIND ON MY MEOWNEY AND MY MEOWNEY ON MY MIND!!
arsenicCatnap: :33 < oh i concoeurl! erm, with aradia, specifically. and thank you for opening up to us jade!
arsenicCatnap: :33 < your yarn really tugged at my heartstrings!
arsenicCatnap: x33 < usually yarn is the thing getting tugged not the other way arrreowwwnd!!! >:33
cuttlefishChiller: Yes! It reminded me of w)(en I was still new to being dead. Yknow, before I became alive again!
arsenicCatnap: :DD
cuttlefishChiller: It was pretty lonely at first. So I used to reminisce about the feeling of Sollux's sludgy mustard tears falling like viscous rain onto my c)(eekfins, as a way of )(elping me get to g)(ost sleep!
apotropaicAlly: hehe they are so sludgy
cuttlefishChiller: RIG)(T???