>Yazira: Ponder the recent past.
You think about what's been happening.
The first thought that surfaces comes with a few potent emotions attached. "I can't believe I acted that way," with all the requisite embarrassment and dread. Seriously, why did you have to act so cagey with Toobie! You assumed the worst, and ended up stumbling tail-backward into the realm of infinite conversational awkwardness. Thinking about it makes you cringe, but you make the sensible decision to move on and not treat it like the end of the world.
Frankly, you don't give a shit whether Toobie becomes a murderdrunk bloodfiend or whether she instead becomes Kelaino's most darlingest little deathhandler. Your goddess has made it abundantly clear that you are not to look away from or feign disconnection from the things in reality that are messy or complicated or terrible to behold. Let all things pass through your heart.